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'Court case has changed me,' admits Steven Gerrard
• England midfielder feels he 'let a lot of people down'
• 'I had to learn from being in the wrong place at the wrong time'
Steven Gerrard has admitted that his recent experience of being charged with affray and the subsequent trial has left him a changed man and he has vowed never to find himself on the wrong side of the law again.
Liverpool's captain was cleared of the charge of affray in July for the now infamous incident in December of last year in which the nation saw CCTV footage of him involved in a bar brawl at 2am after celebrating Liverpool's 5-1 win at Newcastle.
"I'm the sort of player who likes to keep it clean," Gerrard told the Daily Mail. "I was always very decided about the way footballers should behave. I do think it is important.
"It is not about image or putting on an act but I know a lot of kids look up to me, I get a lot of fan mail from them and at the time I thought I'd let them and a lot of other people down, just by being in this position.
"I was concerned that people wouldn't think as much of me and that was why the verdict was so crucial. During the trial, when the prosecution was having its say, there were a couple of days when I was reading the reports and thinking, 'I hope people don't think that's what I am like.'"
The England midfielder added that he has made changes to his lifestyle since the incident in Southport, in which he admitted hitting Marcus McGee, 34, but was cleared of affray and told by the judge he could 'walk away with his reputation intact'.
"The trial changed me," continued Gerrard. "I had to learn from it, from being in the wrong place at the wrong time. What hour I am out, where I go out, I will be more careful in future.
"From now on if we win 5-1, if I score two goals and we go top of the league, I won't try to enjoy it in a bar with my mates any more, I'll go for a meal and be in my house by half past ten. We get paid very well and there have to be sacrifices.
"There is a balance between trying to be a model professional and living like a monk. You have to be able to let your hair down like everybody else but I have always tried to treat people as they treat me.
"There have been very few instances when I have had problems but I will think about my spare time, even my holiday time, more carefully now. I reckon I have another six years as a professional footballer. It is not so long to make those choices."
If I never won the league title, there would be regrets and an empty space, I admit it,' he said.'Yet even if Liverpool were no longer challenging I would still find it difficult to leave. I could win 90 per cent of my medals here and one league championship elsewhere and that last medal would not mean as much.
'I’ve been part of this club since I was eight. I remember my first final, the Worthington Cup against Birmingham City in Cardiff. Swarms of people around the coach, me looking out at their faces.
'It was at that moment I felt I was part of something more than a football team. I would have been one of them, but I was just better at kicking a ball. That could have been me standing on the street. I felt responsible. I still do.
'If you get on our bus after a defeat and you see me and Jamie Carragher, it is not company you want to be in. The difference is I’ve learned to enjoy that pressure as I get older.
'Now we try to transmit that emotion to the foreign players. We try to explain to them what it means to take 6,000 away to Leeds United on a Tuesday in the Carling Cup, when everyone else says the competition does not matter.'
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